I am officially The Tired.

This carefree, swinging-single lifestyle is exhausting. And even though I miss my kid something awful, it’s also quite fun.

Monday night was really the only low point of the week. I got take-out, rented a movie and hunkered down at home. Ready for a cozy quiet night in. However “cozy and quiet” quickly turned to “sad and lonely” as soon as the food was gone and the movie was over.
It was just then when Ben called to say good night. I was determined not to let him hear me cry, but I knew I couldn’t hold out much longer so I quickly said, “Um can I talk to Grandma, honey?” When my mom got on the phone I lost it.

SOB
“I miss him so much!”
SOB. SOB.
“I hate this! Our house is too big and quiet and I won’t make it through the week….”
Sniffle sniffle SOB. SOB.

At some point she put Ben back on the phone and since he knows me so well he knew I was crying, so he too started to cry. At which point Natalie gets back on the phone and says in her best Jewish Mother Don’t Pull This Shit voice “REBECCA! Pull it together! Now your son is crying hysterically and you need to fix this. Oh man he’s a wreck. Fix this!”
So when Ben got BACK on the phone for convo numero three-o, I proceeded to make him laugh, tell him I was fine if he was fine and promise him a pony and batting practice with Prince Fielder if he stopped crying.

Ever since that night, I have successfully pulled myself up by my bra straps and embraced this all too rare week with the gusto of a 21 year old on Spring Break in Cabo.

Tuesday night I went to Ben’s Little League playoff game. (yes, I was fully aware that my player wasn’t there but HEY! That’s my team too! Plus I love the other mom’s…) After they won I went to dinner at this fabulous hole-in-the-wall Thai place with my friend Jackie. With a belly full of amazing Pad Thai and a perma smile from our talks about our kids, I met my friend Steve at the bar in my backyard for a drink. Or four.

Last night I went with my friend Vicki to Concerts on the Square. So much fun! We started out with some great cold white wine and were so wrapped up in conversation, (and of course the great music) we didn’t realize until too late that the food stands were all packed up. Luckily there was one popcorn stand still open. I have now realized that Carmel Corn + Cheese Popcorn + Wine = HEAVEN! Don’t knock it till you try it folks.

Tonight it’s off to get my way grown out and very gray hair did. After that, another Game Night with The Boys. Although I promise tonight will be an early one as tomorrow my BABY COMES HOME!

Not to mention I have to figure out how to get Prince Fielder back from Cincinnati in time to meet us at the batting cages.